Well, it's after 4am. I haven't posted in maybe almost a month. Well, my topic is...has anyone else felt the same as I do? No matter how many times you try to do things numerous of times you just don't seem to get it? Well, I do. And it sucks. I hate the fact the I am slow with everything I do. Whether. It's writing or math or even talking I hate it. Only reason why I'm mentioning this. Is because, I wonder what it's like to be that person. That gets things right off the bat. You know, the person that everyone likes. But, I'm not that person. Not at all. But, I wonder what it would be like to go out to go back to school without worrying about how I learn. I learn way different than most people. And I am not the only one out there who is in the same boat. Who is a good person but lacks...oh what's the word? Smart? Lol
Because, i don't know I feel like no matter how much I see and do I just don't understand. So, my topic is. How to learn at a faster pace when well you have no clue where to start. Well, for starters I'm going back to dutchess. Which is something I should have done years ago. And I can't wait to go back. I'll be 29 in exactly a month from now. And I still feel like I am 18. Everyone around me is having kids and is getting married. I'm not. And in some ways makes me depressed. But, at the same time. I'm still young and naïve to say the least as what a woman wants out of life. A family and husband a house with a white fence, the whole nine yards. To go out and have fun without looking weird. Lol which I've been in those situations and it's not fun. I wonder what it's like to be someone different than who I am. Because, I can't really say i hate the person I am. I just wish I was a bit different as how people see me as. If that makes sense. Lol
