My birthday.

Yes, today is my birthday and I turned 29 today. It feels like a regular day to me. Nothing has changed nothing feels different. Accepted, me getting older and facing the fact that exactly a year from now I'll be 30 years old I try not to think about it. It's depressing in sense....also not to mention I rather have went to work. I mainly celebrated my birthday yesterday with family. My dad worked all day today....and I went out with a friend earlier. So that was nice. Tomorrow is back to work and back to reality. It's 7:30 on a Tuesday evening and I am already set for bed. Hahaha and drinking my favorite wine and reading a good new book I got from Barnes and Nobles. I guess getting older does have its perks. Of boringness and being ok with that. :)

You ever thought...

Have you ever thought of that you are being treated differently....I do everyday just about. But, I keep going because i have I need to. I found out my dad has a %50 percent chance of living. I've been crying for a few hours. I hate crying because I'm usually not the one to cry more so in front of people...and if it gets to bad I need to leave. Because, it's all I know. I live my life for my dad because he lives his. He is the reason why I keep going because he is my inspiration of everything. He once told me to care about yourself because know one else will. I know he didn't say that to be mean. But my life is to to keep going and to remain happy even when you're not. My father is the most strongest person I've ever known. I love him with all my heart. He has non Hodgkin's lymphoma. Which doctors have said it is rare the one that he has is rare. He has a %50 persent of living and %50 percent of going the other way. He isn't getting worse which is an amazing sign. He still has cancer in his chest. I hope the radiation will kill all of it. But since it is a rare form and the doctors said they don't know much about it only a few have had it.  They mainly said they will prolong his life as much as they can. I love my dad and I hope it goes the way god intended. I'm not ready to lose him just yet.